Christmas Eve

Yes it is still Christmas Eve, as I'm FINALLY sitting down to write this post. That means that all of the gifts are made, wrapped, the baking is done and the kiddos are in bed. Guy is watching a Christmas Story and I'm blogging. This year has been particularly hard for me to get in the Christmas spirit and even though we have plenty to be thankful for and many reasons for which was are very blessed this holiday season. I read a blog entry from one of my favorite sites called How Do You Do It, written by other mothers of multiples. A MoM wrote about how she had made a plate for Santa with her wish list on it, and it talked of two toddlers who sleep through the night and other various things, the post made me cry, b/c it hit so close to home this year. My kids are all great sleepers and I certainly wouldn't wish away the years, before I know it my kids will be all grown up. BUT, it's been hard to enjoy this season with two newborns and a toddler. I've felt very unorganized, we don't have Christmas cookies, the gifts aren't perfectly wrapped and some gifts and cards just didn't get sent out on time. We're hosting and cooking Christmas dinner tomorrow and although Guy will do most of it my help will be needed. My biggest fear is that I won't get to actually sit back and enjoy the holiday and take it all in, b/c I'll just need to "get through" the day and then the next day and even on the weekend--between opening gifts and cooking dinner and nursing babies and trying to keep an overtired, excited toddler somewhat under control etc. I know I will get help from everyone who is here, but I also know how overwhelming the day will be for me. However, I really WANT to enjoy tomorrow and the boys first Christmas, after all they only get ONE first Christmas. So here's hoping to the calmest day possible tomorrow. My Christmas wish is to try and relax and see Christmas through the eyes of my two year old who will walk down the stairs and see all the gifts and try and say so much that her words will get all jumbled b/c she can't get it all out fast enough.